wAkE mE

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With so little sleep At least you'd think I'd find some peace in my dreams In my dreams But my mind still winds up on the same thing The same scene The same themes. Cause it's all stuck in my subconscious Built up from every day. So I'm stuck with these nightmares, Where you're gone and so far away... And when I wake up I realize that everything's still wrong; I'm still here and you're still gone; It's not fair Cause either way I spin it Separation seems so wrong. These breaks are far too long for me... Hours and hours I'm stuck inside this place and this town.
And you're gone.
Far away, you're fighting for your life all alone I want to wake up and go home
Cause it's all stuck in my subconscious Built up from every day So I'm stuck with these nightmares where you're gone and far away.
Oh, this tortures me so much that I get sick and I throw up In my dream and here on my bed It's messed up how it's all in my head;;; Yet it's affecting me oh so bad I guess this distance just makes me sick...
Cause when I wake up It's 4 AM and I'm still all alone, Your message on my phone- Don't tell me that sleeping through the night Is never this hard-when you're home Cause I already know ...
cause it's all stuck in my subconscious Built up from every day...


wake me...
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just so you know... that is now my favorite song. doesn't it totally describe how you feel? i daydream A LOT and when i wake up i realize nothing like that is ever going to happen. It is like, if i even think about it, that possibility is gone. its just never going to happen to me. Like you are waiting at American Eagle with a card that could be worth 500, 25, 10, or 5 dollars and your like if i get 500 i would cry! then of course you dont get 500, you get zero. Or like you think about a boy and your like, i could see us together but when you get to school, he just passes you by without a glance and your like.. oh my life sucks.

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The most fabulous day- was today with katielouise and jocelynrenee; two of the best people ever. the only one missing was reggyyy! well we did go shizzoppin and we had a ball. well first we went into abercrombie & fitch and i love it how we walk in, test the perfume, and just sit there talking... adter a couple minutes we realize we are just standing there and say we arent going to buy anything and walk out. then we go to pacsun try on the shoes then sit on the bench, and j-booty kept shoving her ass on us :) LOL. This weird disney store was next-jocelyn's favorite. Then we go to hollister-my new favorite smell-and we each got something. the alarom went off when katie was contemplating on wether or not to buy some shorts, so i turn around and am like KATIE?!? and jocelyn is like SHE COULDNT AFFORD THE SHORTS!! but then she walks up and we start crackin up like a hard boiled egg!!! a BLAST
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KTG came to word! and it was fabulous even though she had to leave early. funny story, we were just sitting at a round table and jordan comes up and sits down and we start talking-all 3 of us. it was cool and in the end he found i suck at spanish-failed his little test- and i have not been turning in my HW but i STILL have an A in that class, he was surprised :). he also made the bball team and he's like are you gonna come to our games. and im all who made it? and hes all hmm rory and- and thats when im all OK. LOL. im stupid.
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So all in all... i had a great time saturday-november 3rd- without b, mike, and kyle and whoever else went to cbus; here. P.S. MIKE SAID HE WOULD CALL AND TELL ME HOW COLUMBUS IS.. I really hope a couple of things for my future... A) me and jordan can make a kick-ass team B)Katie will start comming regularly. C) reggy will some 2 Word too. D) i can make some more freakin funky friends. E) basketball team will be settled and Teal Titans will rule once again F)4.. always hope :D

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