VACATION

c ya tuesday!!!

first day...

first day and i have homework. algebra is easy though. but i have to study a spanish ws. for a quiz. well i am pretty pooped. so byebye.

highschool.

so today is the last day of summer.
tomarro i will be grown up
i dont wanna grow up
i like being a kid.

today is lasting forever, i just wanna get tomarro over with. i dont know what it is going to be like. i dont know what to do when i walk in, and i have no idea where to sit, pathetic, yeah i know. but lunch is gonna be busy, and scary. o jeeze. if anyone has lunch 10, tell mee cause then imma cling to you.
im scared.

goodbye, i am gonna die.

"if you care."

so. it is 1:10. i canot get to sleep, my head is bleeding, my friends 'forgot' to invite me to watch a movie, well my sister doesnt want me there, i just think they dont like a little freshman around, which is cool with me. i just want to find my own friends for once. not the kind that dont talk to you after a fun night, or the kind that dont talk to you at all. i want someo one who when i see them, we start talking right away and can go on and on-and i want someone who when i ask them a question they will want to listen to me too. i want to find these kinds of friends in Word. but it is hard. i feel as though i am trying to get to know them and some of them, dont care. J and B and sometimes T i really like talking to, and they are my friends. but like the one i have known the longest just seems like a little freshman cannot be their friend. i just want them to know me, not what everybody thinks i am, like a whiny, lazy, bossy, angry, judgmental bitch. i know i am those things, but thats not ME.

poems under my bed...

i got an idea, maybe i should put some poems up here. then i remembered, i ripped them all up and threw them in the trash. so i found one of my older poem books... they are soo not good.

1.
i was convinced for a minute there that i was beautiful
until you walked by and i didnt catch your eye.

2.
ha ha ha
why i laugh
no one knowa
i like the sound
i like the feeling
its the only thing that keeps me going
but when i laugh with you
its even better
the world freezes and we laugh together

3.
to love is something
to be loved is everything

4.
the clock is ticking by
oh my
im waiting for the chance i get to see you
and its just to say hi

5.
no one knows who they are
and if they broke someone elses heart

soo, they all suck, and they all are weird, but i am NOT like that anymore. that is how i was. yeah, loser... right?
once i find my better ones i will put then up too :D

"All around me are familiar faces-worn out places, worn out faces"

___so today is august 25th. today means several different things to me. today, the 25th ia a saturday. saturday is CT. saturdays are when i need the Lord to bring outreach to me, to ct. saturday is always a good day, but when its over it is sunday. saturday is a time of joy. saturday is when you can get work done with taking your time. saturday is fun.
__august 25th a year ago was the first day of 8th grade, the first day of the last year that i could be a kid, withought many responsibilities. the first day that ruined an almost perfect summer. the first day i realized blowout camp is never comming again. the first day of the last year at the stink-hole kimpton. the first day of a great school year.
___august 25th is the last saturday before the big highschool. in a week from august twenty-fifth, i will be in a tent with my very best friend. in a week i was planning to explore east harbor... at night. in one week from saturday, august 25th, i will be in highschool, i will know all my classes and teachers, i will know what to expect... but in one week, i will be stressed and tired from highschool.
and if you are still here. august 25th is someones birthday. he used to be my friend, he used to be cool. but what ever happened. i dont know. i can just say, hes not here anymore, and we all loed him.





happy birthday alex

hilarie burton

so i made these, yeah skill huh? well katie gave me this paint shop thing and i am in love with it :). i can do anything with is. these pictures are of hilarie burton, another thing i love. she is peyton on my favorite show, one tree hill. p.sawyer is my favorite, for ever and ever. my favortie picture is the 2nd one down (green). pretty cool, right? well hilarie burton was on mtv's trl. she has a kinda southern accent in real life, but on OTH she covers it up. she is extremely hilarious and so is her co-star, sophia bush. now katie, she likes brooke more (sophia) but no-one on that show can beat peyton elizabeth sawyer, the struggling artist. :)

9thgrade

so9thgradeisgonnabereallyinteresting. i bet you didnt get that. well i tried to see where all my rooms were. it was interesting, all i now is that for 1 or 2 classes, i willl be chuggin it. no, not as bad as my friends:) i feel sorry for then. anywaysss... here is my schedule. if you know anything about the teachers, do tell, because... i just gotta know ;)

1. american history (218) brewer
2. english cp (138) tichnell (?)
3. spanish1 (103) jurmanovich
4-5. study hall (art room)
6-7. science (150) gardner
8-9. journalism (110) donaldson
10. LUNCH!
11. algebra (209) marschik
12. microsoft applications (TECH) murray
END OF THE DAY :DDDDDD

soooo, i normally dont like school-at all. i hope this year will be interesting, and different. i heard from adi-da that my history class is really easy. that is very gooood for me because i suck at that kinda stuff. the algebra is a piece of cake. i cannot wait for journalism and microsoft applications. believe it or not, i love writting. not too gooood with the whole spelling issue though. i think the only class i will have trouble with is spanish... definitly. but i will do best in lunch-yumm (no algebra.) believe it or not, i love it, it is reeeaaallllyyyyyy easy. i hope i can remember everything i learned though.
i have trouble remembering things. i cannot remember anything from 8th grade, except perhaps the last few days of school, and when mr. miller got mad and threw a pencil at veronica. (my fault :[ ) from 7th grade i remember mrs. ellis and mrs. b...b...b... never mind, i dont remember her. in 6th grade i just remember the first day of school, and in 5th the day the guy i liked called me pretty (wtf right?).
soo, i guess i remember a little bit more than i thought ;). but i dont remember anything i learned, taht is my point.
...which is amazing because i had ms. walker as a teacher (that little devil.) worst person ever but a great teacher. she got me from a D to a B+!!! haha that was really funny.
ok, so i am excited for school, but if i get lost, dont make fun of me.





:DDDD

1:20am

goin to bed... again

homechurch/orentation

katie came to home church :)))))))))
i am soo happyyyyy.....
the teaching was pretty good. b's part was funny, so was joe. it got me thinking about the end of the world. i mean yeah i do think about it constantly but i didnt know some of the stuff they taught on. i didnt even know what the tower of bable was for!!

i cant sleep. it is 1:07am. orientation is at 9:00am. i am tooooooooo excited!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

birthday

September 23rd. whoever reads this shall bring me 1 gift :) hopefully.

myspace addict

oh myspace, myspace. i love it sure, but there is just one problem- I AM ALWAYS ON! i go on the computer its there, i say i will be on for a couple minutes, an hour passes, i dont know whats so good about it anyway. i can keep in touch with old friends i guess. but i just cant stop. oh yeah yeah i have tried. but it doesnt work, i will become a fat lazy bum if i am on any more!!!

i DO want to learn how to make layouts though. katie (g) is a genius with those kinds of things. i have been trying to teach myself but i am not quite there yet.

Homechurch is tonight. our last oone before the new year... oh man. i dont want school to start! ug so boring. ast least i get to see friends. i love my friends :). even though some are pretty messed up, i cant say that i am not messed up.
highschool better be good. well i am hoping it is.
well maybe its better than myspace.


-elli marie-

Wedsnesday

i missed prayer, that sucked ass, i am soo sad.
but i saw lion king at playhouse square!!
the coolest play everrrrrrr
my cat could totally make that play though. he is sooo cute! what would i do without him?????

prayer probably kicked butt.

so me n asta are having a rad partay at splah lagoon, it will be sweet. i hope my peeps and her peeps all can make it. i dont know, mine seemed pretty excited.
asta was a little iffy about inviting lets call her B. B has a sister that gets a long fine with J but when B comes in it is like hell. so asta was gunna invite J and B's sister. she just didnt want B to release her fury. but i got my people settled. K, J, C, and S. they are some of the hottest chicks out there people. haha.

i dont want school to start... poop. but its gunna have to for my party.. ;)